What exactly is going on here?!

I have found the perfect nonpoluting, nonresource devouring, renewable energy source. I'll make billions. It's called my freaking out. What energy it produces. What utter panic and freakish resistance to sanity it creates. It amazes me that I haven't had some form of nuclear melt down from all anxiety and fear I have experienced over the past months and continuing on into the unforseeable future. Yes, I have too much time on my hands. Yes, I need to get a job (you think I don't know this?!). Yes, I need to relax and just "be" with Greg. Yes, Yes, Yes... all these things I KNOW. But could someone please tell the part of me that I don't control to please chill?

I keep thinking that I just need to get my life back under control. Well, silly me, maybe that's the point. Maybe Heavenly Father is trying to teach me, yet again, that no matter how much control I think I have, I really have none, that HE has all the control and let's me think I do occasionally. Then he rips it all away in some master plan to teach me trust and dependance on Him. Ha! Not an easy thing He's asking of a world class, should get paid to do it, control freak.

Sigh... can someone order me a rescue from the craziness that is me trying to live my life?

Karl and Becca's Christmas letter

Barnum’s Christmas Quiz 2007
(choose the best answer)

(I tried to download the rest of the pictures, but it's been giving me grief all day, so I'll try to put them in another post.)

Karl –
a. Changed jobs, yet again, to work for Harmonic, Inc.
b. Was called to the Young Men’s Presidency.
c. Took his wife to Austin for a sales meeting.

Becca –
a. Has kids in 4 different schools on 4 different schedules.
b. Is back in the Primary presidency after having 3 different callings thoughout the year.
c. Loves being a mom.

Michael (15)–
a. Performed in Les Miserables as a sailor, bar patron, poor person, pickpocket, wedding guest, French soldier and on the chain gang.
b. Enjoyed Marching Band (trumpet).
c. Got his Driver’s Permit and is racking up his hours.

Joanna (13) –
a. Is becoming a very talented volleyball player
b. Is excited to go to Stake Dances very soon
c. Loves Young Womens and her many friends

Matthew (11) –
a. Continues to thrive in school, piano and sports.
b. Is on the Science Olympiad team.
c. Has his Tenderfoot and is excited to receive the Priesthood next month

Alyssa (10) –
a. Started playing the violin in addition to piano and choir.
b. Loves activity days (mom enjoyed being there with her).
c. Loves reading – especially Royal Diaries and American books.

Brett (8) –
a. Is our resident sports expert (his favorite reading material is the sports section)
b. Was baptized and joined Cub Scouts.
c. Loved playing baseball, flag football, piano and basketball

Jacob(5) –
a. Started Kindergarten and is doing great!!
b. Is a great friend!!
C. Is a “great” example for the twins.

Jesse (3) –
a. Loves nursery and playgroup.
b. Loves to play computer and to spell his name.
c. Is a very busy boy (that’s why he’s not potty-trained).

Braden (3) –
a. Potty-trained himself before he was three.
b. Loves nursery and playgroup.
c. Loves to build pyramids (with magnetix).

Fun Vacation Destinations:
a. Beaver Creek Lodge – for Barnum Family Reunion
b. Utah – for Thanksgiving
c. Kansas – (although the summer humidity isn’t always the best, we love the company)

We Wish You –
a. A Merry Christmas
b. A Happy New Year
c. Would come visit us.